It's June, a month as a child that I mostly relished. Free time, the outdoors, lots of daylight. Here I sit as an adult and to me it's a month I always wish will pass quickly. The whys are many...school is out and I'm missing the adults I spend most days with...I'm anticipating the school year to come and have a host of projects on my mental to-do list...it's hot, I hate hot...I need to wear summer clothes, a plus size woman's worst nightmare...it's a rainy month and our basement isn't known for being the driest place on earth.
I woke up this morning at 3:30 to the rumble of thunder? Where is this coming from? I don't remember anyone predicting it. I was up for another two hours, checking the radar to make sure they amount of rain was tolerable. I then went to sleep and had a nightmare about the after affects of yet another storm (along with some drop ins of long lost friends and a marching band, but that's how sleep goes.
As I was getting ready this morning and trying to determine what I would wear on this hot day that wouldn't look horrendous I realized the metaphor of the storm and the middle of the night wake up call. I can choose to live with joy (and sleep) and let God handle the storms that seem to swirl around us. I can get going and live my life. Or I can sit and wait for the storm to pass, always watching the radar for impending danger. By the time the storm is over and I get moving again another will certainly appear and I'm back to waiting and watching.
I want to commit to choose joy, to live life to the fullest. I want to set a few goals and actually accomplish them. What are they...
If I dream big they are
1. Run a marathon
2. Lose a ton of weight in the process
3. Get our finances in a place where we can vacation frequently on our teacher and custodian salaries.
If I'm being realistic...
1. Maintain our house to a respectful state of organized chaos
2. Accomplish one task each day around the house
3. Actually finish a book I start
4. Spend less time looking at life on the internet and live it
5. Work at being healthy
6. Let go of as much worry as I can
I'm going to jump in...we'll see what happens.
